I am laying in bed writing this journal entry from the comfort of my home. I am contemplating art. For me the true way to escape my miserable and painful life is and was through art making. For a brief moment there shines a light from another world that comes in the form of art. I drink this light as it is the most precious source of energy in the world! I will really never be quenched for this energy is my sustenance. I thirst for creating more art. Instead of seeking salvation in a church I have sought the saving of my soul in an art museum. I now recommend it to the most broken and depraved among us. For art has saved my soul in more ways than one and on a greater scale than you or I can ever possible imagine.
I am at the central library getting books about pop art. I want to learn the history and get as much information as I can. I believe in knowledge. I have been using the library ever since I was little. I remember my mother taking me to the library every now and then so that I can get books and movies to use at home. I would go to the art section and pick out the "how to draw" books. That's how I learned how to draw using shapes and lighting. I used to like getting all kinds of movies. Some of my favorite are the "eye witness" videos. they were a documentary series that covered different subjects. I thank the library for everything that I have learned. Because of my poor upbringing I had to rely on outside sources. I give many thanks to a great institution.
Andy called me an "autodidact" the other day, and I remember not know what the word meant so I immediately started googling it. I like to learn. I suddenly realized that people who don't like learning are people who let life go by and they are at ease with it all. That must feel like a different kind of freedom.
I'm laying on the sofa beneath my smile like you mean it painting. I'm listening to my favorite vinyl records.Right now i have on Reader's Digest's “World's Most Beautiful Melodies”. The record is full of classical music! I am also high as a paper plane. Sometimes in life you have to appreciate as much as you can. Once you open yourself up to the world like a flower, the world opens up to you.
I believe in pushing the boundaries of art. We all need to be pushing the borders as much as we can. Innovation, creativity, transcendence. All this themes are as important as the heaven , the sun and the Earth. The world is ready for the new. The world is ready for the fresh! The world is ready for.. for… FOR US!
Jeff Koons once said, and I quote loosely: “The american artists feels like they do not need permission. They are these young little kids that will grab and do anything they want. Because it is really seeking this kind of spiritual salvation. It doesn’t have to perform in a good manner.That’s the strength in the 20th century.” This idea is what I believe to be true. I feel like that new energy that children have.. To me, art should be about the new, the young, the monstrously egotistic.
It is a warm Sunday. It feels nice. The past couple days the weather has been dark and gloomy. I welcome the sun! Art to me is the gift from the universe. art is the warm rays of the sun. art is the energy that gives life. Like the sun feeding the Earth and her creature's. Art is the same feeding. Art is both the sun and moon. Art is the Earth and it's creature's. Art can be the warm sunday’s of life. Art to me is a gift ,much like the sun, from the universe.
Art is about Art. Art is about the beautiful. Art is about the ugly. Art is about the intellect. Art is about the emotional. Art is about the sake of it. Arrt is an exploration of the inside. Art is about capturing a moment from life, which is fast and ever changing. Art is about self description. Art is about truth and lies. Art is about the meaning of life. Art is about the good times and the bad times too.
I’m not going to die. I’m going to live forever. My soul will be downloaded into the machine. Forever circulating in the circuits. Engaging in the energy. Life on earth never stops and it is all one big cycle.